I can be whiny, bitchy, and very damn “emo.” Sometimes I will curse like George Carlin. I will be honest, raw, vulnerable—oh, the nerve of me! I’m not a professional photographer, so be prepared for that.

I need an outlet for my thoughts. They threaten to explode my head.  Blogging also helps me deal with times I feel lonely as fuck and misunderstood. I have better chances of finding mutuality with the entirety of the web than with my tiny inner circle and local communities.

I’ve spent over 35 years assuming writing was valuable primarily as a tool to get education credit and to vent my feelings in private, and that only a few geniuses were able to make a living at it. Now that I’m disabled and have already ruled out ballet dancer, opera singer, and nurse as a means to support myself, I’m writing to sort my thoughts and feelings. Writing can be done anytime, anywhere, requires little resources, and may pull in some cash someday. This blog helps me hone my skills. I hope someone will gain some insight, comfort, or benefit from it. I’m sure some tro**s will drop by as well.

I started blogging about my physical and mental health issues in 2009. Then it was an earnest attempt to help others heal with food – but many people are doing that, so it seemed redundant. Then, I started a mental health blog—and posted my poetry on it. I tried a social justice blog too. This blog is about all that and whatever else I’m inspired to write.

About me: None of your fucking business– just kidding. No, I’m serious. (Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean no one is out to get you.)

“I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart. I am, I am, I am.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

human being, lover, creator, music school dropout, two-time college dropout, career wait staff, surly customer servant, laborer, over 40, solo, child-free, loner, gardener, activist, writer; used to sing, draw, dance, and do artsy shit and hope I’m not done yet …

things: healing, love, truth, compassionate communication/Non-Violent Communication (NVC), self-care, social justice, gut health, herbs, mindfulness, health, diet, autoimmune-protocol, Paleo, Weston A. Price, grain-free, gluten-free, dairy-free, nightshade-free, toxin-free, low-FODMAP, Crohn’s disease, anemia, SIBO, Candida (not the opera), PTSD, BPD, depression, anxiety, emotions, emotional eating…

It is near impossible to have an original idea. Even if I write a recipe combining pickles and chocolate, or octopus and nasturtium, chances are someone else has thought of it. Please use my contact form if you take issue with any of the content I’ve posted.

I can’t afford a wordpress upgrade, so you may see ads posted without my approval. Most likely, I would not endorse these ads. I support a minimalist and natural lifestyle. We are inundated with messages that try to convince us we need to buy things to make us whole. Don’t believe the hype!

Pinterest was my obsessive-compulsive distraction technique. I’ve pinned recipes, health information, and other wacky stuff. Check it out—at your own risk of course.


Legal Stuff

Although, I’m pretty sure I’ve not included any photos that I don’t have permission to use on this blog, I will add this disclaimer: THIS BLOG claims no credit for images posted on this site unless otherwise noted. Images on this blog are copyright to its owners. If there is an image appearing on this blog that belongs to you and you do not wish for it appear on this site, please e-mail with a link to said image and it will be promptly removed.

I’m not a medical professional. It’s important to consult your doctor before making any significant lifestyle changes, especially if you are taking medications.

If you are in emotional distress, plan to commit suicide, or want to put your life at risk– please call 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 or your local hotline or emergency number.

All content, including photographs and recipe text, is copyright 1987-2015 J. Rae. If any institutions or individuals have used this site for studies, projects, or for any other reason– including the use of my profile, posts, or pictures in any way, shape, or form, either past, present, or future— without prior written consent from J. Rae, this use will be subject to legal ramifications. All content of this site can not be copied, altered, reproduced, distributed, or used in any way without prior written consent from J. Rae. One exception is that recipe posts may be printed or shared if a link to the original location is included. If you have questions, kind comments, concerns, or violations to report,  J. Rae can be reached via the contact form.

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